Haha after math B exam, Jennifer, richie, Kaido and I went to the city to look for masquerade masks (in preparation for natalie's 17th birthday party!!) Walked around for ages but didn't get anything though ): Saw a mask which matched the dress I was planning on wearing to her party but it was really expensive ($40) so I didn't end up getting it haha. With that money, I'd rather go make one myself lol. 

Afterwards I had to get home since I didn't want to bump into that creepy guy again and kaido came with me cause apparently jen thinks I'm very small and I'm in danger when I'm going to the bus stop in the dark LOL. Kaido ended up coming home with me cause he was that bored :P His parents were out till like 9:00pm so he decided to bus with me home :L Funny cause we were talking about the creepy guy and he was like 'oh yeah I can pretend to be your bf if you want, and text that creepy guy back'  me : YESYES YES!!!!! pretend you're like a super buff guy that bashes everyone up :L    him: 'thats so mean!'   LOL and then the creepy guy texted o_o but kaido didn't go through with it and text him back T_T but yeah not replying to the text in the meantime, feel a bit guilty but i'm getting creeped out sooooo. 

Okay first of all, I know everyone has different expectations so yeah, don't like stab me for complaining about my marks. I'm sorry violette if I made it seem like I wasn't happy for you, I guess I just got so used to saying that it came out like that, but I would like to say, Congratulations. I recognize and understand that your good marks don't just pop out of nowhere and I know that you aren't just magically a genius. In fact, you're very hardworking and I"m sorry if I made you feel I thought otherwise. Please know that it was just the complaining part of me who always goes on and on and on. Although I personally did try hard, I guess its also because other subjects are more of interest to me, aka literary subjects so yeah. 

I got an A- for the first physics exam, I'm alright with it. Not particularly happy but not downright depressed either. Maybe a bit disappointed but yeah, I think I improved. This time, I had no help whatsoever from my dad, I studied everything myself and managed to scrape an A. I'm just not good at sciences and math subjects okay? Well it takes extra work for me to even get a decent mark. I could go on and on about how I used to be really stupid and worked hard to be average but you guys probably won't believe me, its true though. Not even being modest like most smart people are, I'm serious. Like for example, I still did really bad on math tests this year =\ not a good thing. 

Put in extra study, but nothing has come out of it yet, but I hope that'll change in second term :) I heard many people got decent marks for physics though cause the test was easy but nevertheless, I'm still relieved that I got an A-. So what if other people got A+, at least I feel like i have a slight chance at getting an A for physics and all. Surprisingly its one of the subjects I'm doing better at right now, even though I hated it last year? o_o But yeah. Jen wen, don't be sad, I'm sure you did fine! Also, me complaining about getting an A- for physics exam seems a bit trivial but you know, it's different for everyone. Like how I find math impossibly hard and although i put in lots of effort ages ago, others who study the day before end up with A. I just need to learn to appreciate what I'm okay at I guess and quit complaining. 

Oh and for those who CHEATED on any exams, don't go shoving your good marks into my face cause you know what? I don't regard that as superior intellectual ability because you didn't actually work hard for it yourself. You relied on the help of others, well more like leeched the questions/answers off others who worked hard and used it for your own personal gain. Maybe you consider it 'helping' others, maybe in grade 9/10 that's okay but when the future of everyone is at stake, I do not appreciate it. It's unfair and immoral in my opinion so please don't go feeling sorry for me or wishing you could've 'helped me'. It's fine, I'll do it on my own, even if I get a bad mark, at least it'll be my own effort, not something I achieved through exploitation of peer relationships. 

Signs of mental health problems 

-spending lots of time alone

-not wanting to go to school, or out 

-Spending less time on appearance

-Not getting enough sleep 

-Changing eating habits 

Does that mean I have mental health problems ._." ? Cause I think all or most of this applies to me.....D:   

On another note, omg i woke up early last time and saw this :)  for mibi & fuzz ;)

 LOL yesterday mum discovered this mushroom at the corner of her bathroom o_o So weird...It was lot more 'plump' before but when I took a photo this morning it was all shriveled up so yeah. Haha for jenwen ;)

Haha these photos make it look like I live in some dodgy forest cabin surrounded by trees and mushrooms o_o

I also just realised that I do mind. I do mind, I do mind, I do mind & I don't know why. 

Let me introduce you guys to my childhood best friend ~

HOLLY HO!! :) 

I met her in kindegarden and the funny thing is I became friends with her cause I put my hand up (without knowing what for) to 'sit next to the new girl' and then I was annoyed at the teacher cause she moved me from my friend LOL. She's taiwanese too :D and we used to go to each other's house 24/7 and I slept over heaps too. She lives on a farm and has sheep/ducks/cows and everything, oh and she had two dogs back then :D Yeah in new zealand there is lots of space so yeah :3 When I had to leave for Australia we were both so sad and then her mum was like 'maybe in the future you'll bump into each other in the supermarket!'. It was around 2010 that my dad went to New Zealand again and visited them, then we found out she used Bebo too! Dad was laughing about how we both 'camwhored' ( well in grade 10). 

Omggg so pretty!!!! Look at her and then you look at me and you'd be like....dude... is penny even 16 years old? LOL big difference aye :D she looks like a 大小姐.

Remember that 'creepy' guy last time? He texted again this time and stuff. 

him: hey i suddenly want to hear your voice ^~^ can I call you? 

me; ermm... i'm kinda busy studying so.... 

him: Ah you shouldn't stress to much, even if its just for five minutes, you should rest 

-calls-  

then after I had to pick up cause yeah D: and then..talked about random stuff, it was alright not creepy but then he was like... 'hey after your exams can I take you to dinner?'   

me: 'Uhm... i still have heaps of assignments so I'm not quite sure...HEY my parents asked me to invite you to dinner' 

him:' you told your parents about me? What did they say? :O I don't want to bother you guys' 

me: 'nah its fine, we always have these taiwanese backpackers over so we're used to it'  

him:'i'll see... but ill you consider about dinner? ' 

me: 'but didn't you say things in Australia were expensive? Just come over'  (Cause i figured he'd be intimidated by my parents and wouldn't talk to me again LOL) 

him: 'nahh, its okay, as long as its under $100 it should be fine'  

TT WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.   

爸爸: 我要吃豆腐

我: 你要吃媽媽的豆腐 

爸爸: 媽媽的是臭豆腐

媽媽:Jed 的是豆乾 

爸爸: 我喜歡軟的豆腐

媽媽: 那你的是豆子 

我: ....我是正常人 

Jed: 你是豆花

LOL nice family I have. 

I came home, ate, tried to study a bit but wasn't in the mood so i had a 45 minute power nap. Damn it I'm so angry at myself, should've started work earlier, now I feel like crap cause I only did math B study....

;awoeifn;asodin Math B makes me wanna cry, not even kidding like :OSIDNF:OI:OIE how can I be so crappy at math that I find it hard while everyone else is like 'oh yeah, its easy lol'. On the verge of just chucking the textbook at the wall, not even kidding, how can I be so freaking stupid at math?!?!?!?!?!?!?! T_T Mental breakdown. It's 12:30am, I have a Japanese reading test tomorrow. I haven't started studying, well Japanese is usually easy for me but I should still study....oh and I have Math C, Physics, Chemistry to study for as well. Haven't even completed one revision sheet ): 

I must admit that I think my health is deteoriating..the ulcers on my mouth have been there for pretty much a week and it happened cause I accidently bit myself two weeks ago while I was eating? I sleep at around 12:30-1:00 and wake up at 8:00am or in the case of tommorrow, 6:45am. Okay now that I mention it, I get around 7 hours of sleep, not too bad. Just being a sook orz. I need to hold myself together, okay penny? okay. 

So i guess in the end, it never really mattered did it?

Remember that taiwanese guy I mentioned before? Yeah well I decided he is a bit creepy after all, well only a tad but yeah. You see, last time he asked for my number  (so i could teach him eng or whatever) and I actually gave it to him - -" very smart penny. Well I just didn't really know how to react, like am I supposed to be like 'WHAT?!? NO, GO AWAY YOU STALKER'  ? lol I wish. 

Plus, I had my phone with me that day unlike last time with the turkish guy in which I accidently left it at home; so this time the taiwanese guy actually test called :O so If i gave him a fake number this time, he would've known. So anyways, that was all good but then today he texted. 

'Hey, when do you finish school?' 

Me: '3:20' 

'Oh, so you're already home? '

Me: 'yeah' 

'When do you finish school tomorrow? Can I meet up with you, we could just walk around a bit' 

Me: Uhhh I finish at the same time everyday but I have to go home and study, plus dad won't let me out. 

'Ohh, okay, everyday? Well anytime you can, just let me know, or whenever you take the bus by yourself, just let me know'   

Note this was all through text in mandarin so yeah, some parts were in english e.g. the 'whenever you take the bus by yourself' bit so I'm hoping he was just bad at english and didn't mean to sound creepy LOL. I told this to my mum and instead of being protective of her one and only daughter she started cackling about how I had an admirer - -" thanks mum. Then she kept going on about how she thinks he'll keep asking me out until I say yes & that he 對我有意思 (is interested in me) << oh and she suggested that I invite him to dinner. Yeah I'll do that when the world freezes over. Oh then she called me chicken cause I should be trying to make more friends and so in the future when I'm finding a boyfriend.......... OMG why can't my mum be normal? T_T 

He was pretty nice to talk to, but still meeting up with someone I just met sounds a bit creepy ;o mum is amused instead of worried D: Why do I always meet people who talk to me at the 390 bus stop??????!? 

 Omg this is really random but like purple sweet potatoes are so awesome!!!! I had some last night and idno i became obsessed cause it was so pretty :D I think it was my first time eating it, if I have already that it was probably a few million years ago hahaha. Okay I'm so random o_o but it so cool! Made my dinner look awesomely colourful 8)

Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord. On the contrary: "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head." Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good (Romans 12:17-21).

Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing (1 Peter 3:9).

Anyone who claims to be in the light but hates his brother is still in the darkness. Whoever loves his brother lives in the light, and there is nothing in him to make him stumble (1 John 2:9-10).

 Whatever you may think, I'm not posting this to provoke anyone, its simply just a reference to something people should follow by. So, i wonder if there will be any social repercussions for this. All I'm going to say is, I'm not getting involved and as a bystander this is just my opinion however hypocritical it might be. Oh and no, it does not mean I'm taking a particular side; I'm so tired of that. If it's not what I think it is then my apologies, truly.
如果大家都離開了, 還會有人因為在乎我而留下來嗎?
Sorry guys, I'm just in a pondering mood again - always like this if I'm blogging late :\ i should really get studying. That is all. Knowing me, my mood/opinion will probably change tomorrow. But yeah, until then I'll ask, however cliche it might be, do not judge me please. asdfasdfa;oienf i've been typing then backspacing and the typing again @@ I don't know if its even a good idea but right now I feel like blogging so......just for keeping me sane then. Perhaps the possible ostracism could lead to better studying for me :3 -yep being positive here-  Okay you probably don't even know what I'm on about but yeah by now you guys will have probably realised that 4 years worth of blogging still equates to random ramblings of my life :L Should to sleep now :') haven't slept properly for aaaages, need to get my act together.
 Goodnight guys~  :) 
  
jenwen! we need a d&m asap!! 

asodifj;alwknf;zoidf apparently my physics level 1 exam is next friday too along with chemistry level 1 and japanese reading test. THEN, the week after that : chem lvl 2&3, MathB KAP, MathC KAP, Physics lvl 2&3, Math C MAP. Week after that, MathB MAP, Japanese writing test. 

;oaidnflk;wef0ozi9xdj I hate math B. Yeah I spent a few hours doing it, well actually I don't know what I was doing but i managed to waste a few hours. I think i walked around/sat there at my table blanking out too long o_o Cause I don't feel like i actually studied for that long...and it doesn't feel productive either. I'm so scared of week nine, freaking 5 tests crammed into the whole week. State high really needs to come up with a better way of scheduling our exams if they want more OP1's :\ Haha okay maybe its just me. 

Week 8- Chem level 1 test & Jap reading test

Week 9- Chemistry level 2&3 on monday,  mathBKAP&mathCKAP on tuesday, Math C MAP on wednesday, Physics on Friday  

Week 10- Math B MAP on tuesday, Jap writing test   

Haha I got so sick of 'studying' math B (ahem catching up) that I went to make lunch :3 Made Jennifer's awesome healthy salmon sandwich 8)

It suddenly hit me that this year really is my final year of high school and that after I graduate I won't really ever be seeing my friends on a daily basis anymore. I won't have teachers telling me what to do, I won' be able to sit around at lunch messing around with friends, I won't really have a class where I'm close to everyone and in general, I won't be able to stay a teenager anymore. Argh so hard to imagine, but I think I won't like uni half as much as i 'like' highschool. It'll be filled with boring lectures, responsibilities, initiative on my own behalf and I guess no drama in general? Sounds odd but perhaps uni life will be so mundane that I shall be very bored =\ Also everyone will be going separate ways ): Sigh 

omg i sound like the biggest sook now, but today I did my speech and cindy ( who was sitting next to the teacher) said she saw the teacher give me an A ( well she's not sure if its a minus or not but yeah, still an A) LOL. Okay i'm supposed to be aiming for like A+ but still, I'm pretty okay with it considering that literally thought I was going to fail yesterday. Prayed this morning before I gave my speech, I really should be doing that more often :) 

I was sitting there being nervous this morning when I woke up to practice my speech and then randomly I found this card thing which I got from religion/ lifegroup from big liz aaages ago. It said: 

Encouraged me alot actually, cause recently I've just been stressing out all by myself and I forgot about everyone else. Coincidence that I found it just this morning? I think not :) So anyway, the rest of the day was pretty good. I had a QCS lesson second period :D With elaine and we basically just learnt about the QCS writing task which just happened to be the test I did the best in and also my favourite one cause yeah, the rest is all hard for me :L Then, physics next. I. Do. Not. Get. A. Single. Thing. Seriously, my teacher just draws random diagrams without much explaining, not even Yee sum can properly understand him and she got physics subject award last year!!! I go home and read over the textbook, come to class the next day only to be confused again lol. Time to knuckle down and study physics >: My op prediction was like :s and then also I heard about other people's results so now I'm slightly more motivated to try harder.

Omggg mibi and fuzz are so cuteeeeeee!!!!!!!!! okay excuse me, since you guys probs don't know what I'm talking about but yeah, just me spazzing to myself ohohoho.

 Uhmmmm I don't understand physics ): But I shall study :D along with that, also math B, chem etc. Oh gosh I love Mr. Badran, he makes chem so much more easy/simple. I swear I don't even know how I passed chem last year with Mrs. Anderson, no offence. She's nice and all, but she really doesn't teach properly. I heard Mr. Badran marks really harsh but at least he can teach! I actually don't dread chem anymore and I can sorta explain to sally the things she doesn't understand now :D I like asking FooFoo (foonie lol) questions too 8) I am recovering from the trauma ms. Williams&anderson gave me over chem :L Okay exaggeration. Good afternoon! <-- wow major moodswing lol, yesterday I was all like )))): and now i'm like :DDDD