All of a sudden I'm missing the past again, just like I always do. I feel momentarily disgusted with this aloof and insensitive version of myself who doesn't try her best at everything she does. It's kind of sad really, to look back on my past self and realise it had been a better version and that growing up has changed me for the worst. 

I no longer put so much effort into friendships, I no longer compete with myself and strive to improve. I no longer take initiative to talk to people. I no longer look for the best things in people. 

I want to revert back but a part of me wonders if it is too late. 

I miss my little dog Sugar so much.