I'm not meant to be blogging right now cause i have heaps of stuff to do but yeah, i'm addicted to the internet - - my hand hurts right now cause of playing violin, probably a result of not practicing for so long haha but yeah, i think i'm gonna fail my school exam this friday. I think mrs. mallon hates me -sigh-


I was gonna take a picture of myself with my fringe up to show you guys how bald i am but i decided against it cause it was pretty retarded-looking LOL i wish i was one of those people who looked fine without a fringe. Okay you didn't need to know that ~ i wanna go bake something right now except i don't have the time//not allowed so yeah ): cause right now i have like cream and creamcheese in my fridge and thats alot of things you can make


Today I made yee sum rip a page from her math book cause i was telling her about something funny that happened in physics last semester haha & i told her she needed help ;) she knows the kids helpline off by heart you know? thats a sign :D Math B right now is easy cause i already learnt all that in math C , i've never appreciated mr. orfanos so much before, except now i have mr. bowden for math C and its better not to listen to him cause you'd get more confused, literally .__.

I feel so tempted to start procastinating but i shall not cause i have bio, jap, english, math b, math c homework to do + legal assignment and a deck of jap tutor homework to do T___T i wonder if i'll die in senior? I'm so full right now, had like 2 and a half sushi's for dinner after I ran like 4 laps of the oval. I was tired even though I ran two laps in a row without stopping and then rested after every lap after that ;o so unfit. my dad said i looked very healthy .__. with my 'red' cheeks lmao elaine would probably call me a apple - - lol


OKAY I SHALL STOP BLOGGING ; EVEN THOUGH I WANNA BLOG ABOUT SOMETHING INTERESTING BUT I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY SO I SHALL LEAVE :)! okay i think i just convinced myself ; so byeee, i'm always on about so much crap these days

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okay i'm back to update! I just received $20.66 from mcdonalds for doing the online orientation :D! and I start my shift next wednesday and have one on sunday as well :) for training but still~ hohoho $$

I'm glad that I didn't blog 30 minutes ago otherwise i'd probably be raging 3/4 the way through cause my parents decided to pms today for no reason, literally. My dad suddenly decided that me and my brother have to go to bed by 10:30, we're not allowed to use the computer after that time even for homework and we HAVE to go to bed at that time no matter what, even if we have an assignment due the next day.

But at the same time i'm supposed to be getting all A's for my report card from now on. Apparently me and my brother are malnutritioned and have to eat more than a piece of toast and milk for breakfast. Apparently i will have to ask my dad to open my msn, blog and facebook from now on to use it. This is all cause apparently everyone else out there works so much harder than I do. This is all apparently for our own good or else we'll grow up to be 廢物. I'm calm now :) well actually i was before but i was pretty pissed but yeahhhh; cause my dad started using my religion against me again, I really don't like it when people do that because they don't even choose to believe that themselves. But yeah, this will probably mean i won't get to blog everyday if my dad continues to do what he said.

Personally I think i've been improving every year, whether its my efforts or personality towards my family but maybe thats just me. I've been trying because I know i'm not perfect and that i have a really bad attitude but you know, maybe i haven't been trying hard enough. Now thinking about it, the restrictions my dad has set up are slightly reasonable but the way he phrased it really annoyed me & my brother. It's probably cause i was forced to do my biology and other homework today when it wasn't even due yet and how my mum asked me to bake cookies for her workplace but then started pmsing at me when i actually did saying that I ' wasn't studying hard enough and placing my priorities first'.

Oh wells ~ my mood changes all the time, i'm just blogging for the sake of it i guess cause I have no life lol , i better leave now cause my dad doesn't know i'm on yet. Don't think he has gotten round to blocking it yet. I am by no means a pushover, actually so far from it its scary, i'm pretty rebel actually .__. so yeah I'm gonna go make adjustments to my personality hopefully. Nights ; i'm starting to sound very retarded //weird haha

We failed in music fest today T_T ( some orchestra competition thingyo)



I'm just warning you that there is lots of complaint below so don't bother reading cause you know, its gonna be pretty boring and get on your nerves.


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I am so disappointed in myself argh @: why can't i just practice my violin more often instead of just touching it when there is rehearsal? I wish i was as good as everyone else yet i'm still here procastinating. There is something seriously wrong with me. Every time we have a performance i freak out and stuff up, I'm getting worse every year cause i don't practice & I always make excuses for myself. - -


Recently i've been pretty sleep deprived, yeah thats totally great for growing taller isn't it penny? I've pretty much been damaging my eyes, reducing my chances of growing because I always get distracted while i'm doing work. I need to stop making freaking excuses for myself! I keep saying to myself that this semester is the last chance I can bludge cause its grade 11 next year and how i'm saving all my effort for senior but the truth is i'm just being lazy. a;osidfjas;odifj everyone's achieving something and i'm like just being lazy. Sure, its pretty relaxing i suppose but it always ends up pretty depressing.


OKAY i will stop complaining now, it won't do any good, well one good thing outta all this is that i'm getting on with my dad better these days haha~ even though i still can't stand corny situations but ya know lol. That was pretty pointless but then again, this is my blog so whateverrr, i think i'm going crazy @@ talking to myself. If i'm so stressed now, I am definitely screwed for senior .__. i will now motivate myself more , well try to anyway. Haha , i shall blog about something more interesting next time i suppose. Lol haha, just remembered something stupid i did last time. A while ago, elaine's mum, elaine & her bro came over to my house while my parents away and elaine's mum was trying to make milktea.


elaine's mum: penny, where is the sugar?
me: Oh, she's with the people who adopted her


- - I have hearing/comprehending problems ;o hopefully i can understand things faster later on in life

This morning while i was waiting for the bus, I was so stupid i left my laptop behind on the seat when my bus came. Thank goodness the bus driver reminded me that I'd left something back on the seats ~ well anyways, today was a pretty average day, i got to school just in time to see sunny and them spazzing cause marina had given her a birthday gift.

I actually kinda feel sorry for marina though, she's not a bad person its just um she sucks her fingers a bit to often so its slightly disturbing but yeahh it probably feels bad to be socially shunned. Well other than that, during jap Ronja wrote something pretty funny on the board, instead of writing じてん車　she wrote じ10車 LOL only the people who jap would get it though, uh well. I've decided that I'm going to start doing my homework from now on, or else i'm so screwed for school.

Went up to water my navy beans with yee sum, eva & alice except it turns out our plants sorta died ): well like there was this web-ish thingyo across the holes, we thought it was rotten at first but like we didn't even make it that wet. Mr. Hadgelias suggested that it might be a fungus disesase thingyo .___. -sighs- well my EEI depends on this so yeah it better not dieeee. Well i'm off for now, dad's in a good mood so might watch a movie later//do my legal assignment.

just some of the stuff my parents got me, couldn't be bothered to take photos of more lol, apparently there is more arriving .__. well my jumpers apparently cause i only own like 2 jumpers right now :L and i freeze. First time they ever shipped stuff back ! ooooooh ; okay i'm fine :L